Warning tuff love incoming.
Nkato, <3 you man, but part of the problem is that you spend a lot of energy complaining about video games and playing video games instead of hitting the pavement and finding work.
Sending resumes also isn't enough, you HAVE TO send follow up emails (since you're unable to do follow up calls), show up at offices with a smile/nicely dressed/clean and with large flash cards of positive things (NO DRAMA) of what you want to say, such... "I've a hearing disability. I'd love to work here! May I introduce myself to the hiring manager or team? May I get a tour of the facility to see what it's like working here?" Stuff like this, You need to stay positive when in front of people and in communication NO MATTER HOW depressed or upset or betrayed you feel. Career advancement and getting jobs is a huge percentage of getting the hiring manager/team or management to "have a good feeling" about you. Developing their trust, admiration, and appreciation because of both your skill sets/performance and what you're like when they interact with you. Even if they are FUBAR type of people. That's a big part of reality in the job market.. getting people to like/respect you. So this means acting/putting your guard up and putting on a fake face when on the job. I'm overgeneralizing a bit but this is the reality of the world we live in as far as in USA. Use street smarts.
You put your heart on your sleeve in Discord, I see it, others see it.... and we get that you're incredibly stressed. But your situation is not going to change unless you put in a hell of a lot more effort and get help where you can via the local and federal government.
I recently took a class at Devry (entry class) called Critical thinking and problem solving online... it's more about finding a career options that we're a right fit for based on our values, personality, morals, and skills. Lots of chapters dealt with this but 3 chapters dealt with targeting a job search, crafting resumes, and handling interviews. Here is some things from those chapters which may be of help:
That's just a small portion from the chapter on targeted job searching, if you decide you want to read more, let me know Nkato, I'll PM you the rest.
