tl;dr i've been drinking
some more background:
so the last gaming organization i was in was a wow guild years ago. i was raid coordinator for my guild and i also organized a fight night type gambling thing with a bunch of other guilds.
i was pretty good at the whole min/maxing thing and i handled logging raids and examining, uh, like people's performance. i pretty much had to tell people they, uh, fucking sucked, and then recommend they be kicked off the raid team or whatever. it was kind of harsh, but hey, logs. what could i say. i said it politely, but damn, we took that shit seriously. like i was tasked with this job, we needed someone running around McNamaraing the whole thing.
and it payed off, i have an account with a server first on it, which is cool, but to get there we had to step on a lot of people.
but i haven't played that game in a long time, the guild self destructed, and i lost interest after 5 years in.
since then i've given a lot of games a few hours, but there's nothing that i've felt compelled to play. What i loved about it was the necessity for community and the requirement of cooperative play to achieve long term hardcore goals.
my first true love of a game was Space Quest, by Sierra. I watched people play Wing Commander and Privateer, but i never really had a computer that was good enough to play them, i bought them of course, i had barely the minimum specs, if that, and i was not really able to track targets at 5 fps or probably less. My friends dad let his son put Privateer on his work computer and it was beautiful. I got to watch, they wouldn't let me touch it.
Eventually i was building computers, but at the time doom and then doom 2 were the big things and no one played space sims and my computer really couldn't handle a real flight sim in any kind of fidelity. Also i was running dial-up BBSes and doing other things like sucking at girls.
i do not remember college
when i moved back to dallas i built a computer that ran Independence War 2 and after that, yeah, some console games and then that whole wow thing.
what i'm looking to do in star citizen is work a series of goals.
at this point what i'm looking to do, in terms of this squadron, is to fit myself into whichever skill group i fall into. to figure that out, after v.9 with friends lists, is to try and build up my contacts and do as much PvP and coop PvE with them as possible.
eventually, my level of suck will settle in and i will have a robust network of players that either will let me fly their Merlin for them, or they won't